Dave Duerson was a star safety in the NFL. He used his head in the way that aggressive defensive backs often do – as a battering ram to bring an opponent down, maybe even jar the ball loose. He was articulate, generous and in his post-football life, successful. So it saddened many of his friends and colleagues to learn that he had committed suicide last month. But even in this last, desperate act there was a method to the madness: he shot himself in the chest, so that his brain would be left intact. He was convinced that the downward spiral of his life over the past few years was due to football-related brain damage – chronic traumatic encephalopathy. He texted his ex-wife just before he shot himself, requesting that his brain be given to the NFL brain bank. Just in case she did not get the message, he left a written note with the same instructions.
We have blogged the issue of concussions in the NFL and their potential for long-term brain damage. As this prior blog pointed out, a changing of the NFL’s medical guard indicates that the league finally appears willing to confront the issue head on (so to speak). They no longer systematically deny a connection between concussions on the field and severe cognitive problems after football careers come to an end.
Over the past few years, Duerson was in a downward spiral. He lost his business to bankruptcy. He (uncharacteristically) assaulted his wife, who soon felt compelled to end their marriage. While his friends did not see major changes in his behavior, he talked openly of his fears of dementia. He suffered short-term memory loss, blurred vision and pain on the left side of his brain. He looked into the future and despaired at what he saw coming. At the time of his death, Duerson was only 50.
Suicide as Political Act
Duerson’s last gesture was an explicitly political act. He was convinced that his life problems – and the rapidly diminishing quality of that life – were directly connected to his years as a football player. So he not only decided to end his life, he made sure that suicide would leave his brain intact for research. The NFL has been (belatedly) collecting the brains of deceased players willing to donate them, to try and determine the impact of repeated violent collisions on aging. At this point, there is not much doubt of the causal connection – not in every individual who played the game, but surely in a significant percentage who suffered from multiple concussions.
With this connection medically proven, the burden falls on the NFL to improve player safety. That will not be easy. This past season, a number of players – most notably the Steelers linebacker James Harrison– complained about the newly implemented fines for helmut to helmut hits, defined as:
“using any part of a players helmet (including the top/crown and forehead/hairline parts) or facemask to butt, spear, or ram an opponent violently or unnecessarily; although such violent or unnecessary use of the helmet is impermissible against any opponent, game officials will give special attention in administering this rule to protect those players who are in virtually defenseless postures…”
Duerson the player would have agreed with Harrison about the rule. Duerson the retiree would have supported it. Experience is an exacting and often cruel teacher. As Duerson’s sad demise demonstrates, what we choose to ignore in the prime of life may give birth to demons that haunt us as we age.
